"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
― Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum
I have been absent from this space for way longer than I intended. Truth be told, life has broken me. And my healing work has been to learn to taste the sweetness of those apples again. In honour of the opportunity to begin again, am in search of a name. Something that sings with the one I already have . To sit in between these two. A middle name with meaning, to represent who I might be, to serve as a bridge between who I once was and who I might become, as I tenderly , and tentatively move forward into the river that is called l-i-f-e while trying my best not to crush the tender shoots that are just beginning to sprout under my feet. I thought I was ready last spring, but I realized I was not. As they say, miles to travel before I sleep....there was so much more I needed to see and understand.
Your ideas are wanted and appreciated. Names in other languages are fine. Think beauty. Think movement. Think growth and nature. And healing.
I will trade you a pair of silver pretties, if you can help me figure this one out....not much for something as powerful and important as a name, but its what I have, and its from my heart
I desire to be named by friends, I desire to be named by people who know me
namaste, Kerin Rose